'God, I dunno what I'm gonna do there! I'll be like a stoner there without knowing anybody there!'
That was the first few thoughts when I was in the car, on my way to the party. Well, our way. Yeah, a party of five were on their way for a Christmas party hosted by a well known and respected society. The reason for this "anonymous-ity" is to protect copyright but I guess that's not the issue here right?
So, where was I?
Ahh yes, the journey.
When we reached there we were greeted by jolly and good fellows dressed to impersonate afavourite Christmas character. And so we parked the car and made our way in. It was a condominium residence and the party is being held at the poolside in the area. From the top of my head I was thinking two things; wild and wet. Well maybe not wild in a sense that this is a Christmas party and surely there will be some merrymaking and caroling, which by both of these things I stood corrected.
Oh, but WET.
Well, I wasn't prepared to be thrown like a human cannonball, but its a NO-NO for me. Heck, I even wagered with my mates that I will not get dunked. And i wasn't. Escape by mere haggling with a merry man. (I'll get into the details later).
So we made our way to the party area, and there was when I started stoning. I mean, people I dunno because I'm new are like looking at us. And I was like 'don't eat us with your eyes...'. Ok, back to earth. We were quite early because no one was really here yet, only the hosts and some people who I don't know.
We were invited to have a munch first if we wanted to. So yeah we were hungry. I know I was :D. Helped ourselves with the food provided; namely pasta, fries and muffins, the tiny and cute ones. Then we picked a table and started eating and while doing that i made a note in my mind;socialize with these people. A bit hard for me, but usually I make remarks about their claims and ta-dah; a conversation started. Guess I'll pull that trick.
Oh, and there was beer available. Since it's been a long time since I've drank, I guess I could give alcohol a try again. So all of us got some beer except one who doesn't like to drink. Ok then, leave her be while she look at us drinking. =D
Little do I know that beer made a difference.
After the brief munch we went down to the pool to see what was going on. Carolers were setting up their instruments and people chatting by the pool. Soon more people came by the pool and we all were in a conversation. I tried to be a part of it by asking questions and to tell you the truth, I was successful. Well, my mission was quite finished.
Well, thats was until I met you.
At first, I didn't know you. But I could sense something when you came. I tried dismissing these feelings because I usually feel them but I just couldn't. So I just let it be. Yeah, what was the worse that could happen. I mean, come on! We just met and I don't really know you!
But I knew it wouldn't stop right there.
After that we went back to the balcony for the barbecue. That's was when we had our first conversation, by the drinks. It was like a normal 'I'll-make-a-remark-of-your-statement'conversation but it led to something more. It was by the barbecue stand. You and I was lining up for barbecue when you made a friendly gesture towards me. I mean, it was so friendly it's like we're friends.
Again the particular feeling came to me. I tried to hide it by asking a 'follow-according-to-the-situation' question. You obliged it. Then you went away with your friends and I was giving back a smile.
Well, the feeling was nice while it lasted.
So then after the barbecue session we proceeded to the pool for the caroling. Or at least it was that. Well maybe it didn't really go well because everyone was busy dumping people into the pool there was laughter and splish-splash than people singing 'The First Noel'. I wasn't really caroling because I was sipping away my beer, which was my second one. I was also looking foryou, but I didn't want to frantically search for you so with my eagle eyes I was searching. Youweren't there. I guess probably you're still in the balcony eating because you just arrived.
Okay then. I guess I'll wait for you.
Then you finally came down. And you greeted me with a cute question; 'still not drunk yet?''haha, not yet. Still sober.' I replied. And you wouldn't drink because you're underage. Howcute.
At that time I was really starting to like you. I guess I had that feeling that I wanted to tell youeverything about me. But I didn't. I hesitated thinking that you might freak out. So I did what I had to do to ensure that nothing bad happens; keeping quiet.
I guess maybe I was quite stupid to do that. I had a couple of drinks and my mind was starting to blur. I could feel the throbbing veins in my head and whole body. My body was turning redand i was feeling woozy and at the same time, happy. I guess I was drunk.
We were about to go home when two of our members we're still missing. So I took the liberty to find them and go home because I was going to be drunk. I went down searching for those two when you came and approached me. From what I saw, you went into the pool, though I thoughtyou wouldn't and saw you half-bared. The alarms in my head were blaring and my mind was fuzzy as you were talking to me asking 'who are you looking for?'. I came back to reality and replied that I was looking for my members and asked you whether you've seen them and yousaid no and I said 'okay, thanks I'll keep looking for them.'
I tell you my mind was filled with a lot of things and I just want to organize them and pick which one is more important. Then I found those two, who were from the toilet and told them our party was gonna go. So we went back up to the balcony but we didn't leave as soon as I thought we were going to. In fact we stayed socializing. I thought I would be upset but when I think again it was a good opportunity for us to know each other!
Either that, or it's the beer talking. I gave a little chuckle.
I didn't want to leave the group finding for you so I stayed at the balcony waiting for you to come back up. You did and again you asked that cute question; 'still not drunk yet?' 'no, of course not!' was my reply, even though I damn well know I was drunk. I guess I was being drunk, or half drunk because I still understand what I was talking. And then you left getting some leftover food or something like that or helping to clean up. But I saw you from a distance, and you are such a good kid. I was smiling and laughing as I took a gulp from the can of beer I was holding.
Then it was time for us to leave because I was seriously drunk and my party's driver really wants to send me home. I was quite reluctant to leave but I left anyway. I wanted to ask for your contact but somehow my mind was configured to 'just-go-home-and-go-to-sleep' mode. I went home anyway without asking your contact. But it was probably the alcohol in me that was controlling me. And I hated it for that.
So I went home, partly drunk and partly depressed because I failed to know you more. But in a way I was quite happy for some reason. I guess it was after meeting you. So I went to bedhappily with my hopes held high knowing that we'll meet each other again. And I went to sleep with a thought in my mind; I'M IN LOVE.
p.s. how I wish you were reading this now.
